This could have been me
I read this story Couple’s Suicide Pact and remembered how close I had come to being another statistic.
I could not have borne the loss of my children and yet in these circumstances you have to get yourself to the place where you are willing to lose them, to act. That is the amount of courage it takes to leave a relationship that is manipulated by mental health issues.
If your partner is discussing suicide as an option for you, even jokingly, heed the warning. They are serious. They are contemplating it as a solution. Go along with the conversation if you need to, but then take action to either get out or get them help. Trust your gut instinct here.
Every day I look at my kids and know how close I came to losing them and then I read about those who were not so lucky, so I urge you, ACT. Talk about it with friends, family, doctors, strangers. Anyone. Get help. Ask for help, and help will come. I know it’s a lot to have that sort of faith, but sometimes you have to trust the laws of the universe because that’s all you have left.
More information here Suicide Survival Guide